Adoption Letters, strength to let go

Matthew 18:5 - And whosoever  shall receive one such little child in my name receiveth me.

 SKYLER BirthFamily

Skyler:Poppi/Mimi

Skyler:Brittany,Kyle,

Sister

How do you tell a father/mother Thank You for letting you raise their son!!!  To grandparents who want to raise him, but just are ready to be Poppi and Mimi. Don't think there are perfect words. It's more showing them. Showing them you will love and care for their child as they would. As a adoptive parents it feel like you have to do better, you have more of promise to up hold.  Here a letter I wrote to Skyler's birth family.  They chose life instead of abortion. They chose to give their child a opportunity. They gave a couple a hope. Think of the strength God gave them, not many of us have that strength, only God can give birth families this strength to allow their child to be raised by someone else. I believe it's only strength from God and allow us to raise somebody else's child when our heart desires to have one of her own.  Adoption is a act of God. See Justin didn’t want to adopt at first. It took time. Knowing it's not just us, two other parent are part of our child to. But it's a beautiful triangle of love brought together by God.  Here is the adoption symbol: 

One side is birthparents, one side is adoptee, one side the adoption parents. The heart represents the love we all have for each other. I am forever grateful for the birth family of Skyler and their love they have for us  we will always love them because they are part of Skyler.

To Skyler:  Poppi (In Memory of) and Mimi.

Skyler will remember Poppi’s love for him, but it’s up to us to show and tell him as he grows. Poppi loved Skyler, I will remember to tell Skyler he sang to him as he rocked him in his arms, Prayed over him, and took him to church for the first time. Even preach to him 😀! Poppi you will be missed (went home to be with the Lord in 2016.). Mimi loved her boy, Thank you for staying up late nights with him, getting him healthy and strong, Took him to church for the first time, made his first prayer blanket.

(Poppi and Mimi loved their grandbaby but know they were ready to be just that. Not parents again. So the pray. GOD ANSWER, by bringing us all together in room. That day Poppi Rod said, i felt God peace. He knew Skyler was meant to be with us.) A loved like these is beyond measure because that how big God loves is.  I am forever grateful to you for blessing us with your grandson. Skyler is a true blessing. I promise to teach him all about Jesus. Just as you started when he came to live with you!!!  

Adoption Symbol on Skyler Shirt

Dear Skyler, birth mother and Birth father 

When I loss the Quints I started to process would I ever have the opportunity to love and raise a child on earth. I praise God and keep praying God will in life. Well God's working. God had big plans for Skyler, and he was hearing us both. I want to thank you, but it seems so simple to say, because I am so grateful to you for blessing us with a beautiful special gift name Skyler. Who is strong like you? Don't let anyone ever say you gave up your child, because that is far from the truth. What you did is give your child a life, opportunity, and extra love. That what a real true mom/dad does. We will be able to share the love of Jesus, make memories and more, something we never thought we would do. I am forever grateful to you. You both, your future children, and family will always have a special place in our hearts and prayer. 

We promise to tell him about you and your love and choice that show true unconditionally love. We cannot promise him a life free of pain or hurt, but what we can promise is that we will be by his side, praying and guiding him through life journey. We promise to love him unconditionally. And committed to doing the best we can as parents that you have chosen for him. 

Thank you for your decision, may you always know of the profound joy you brought into the world. Our love goes to you and to the part of you that lives within our Son.

Love 

Forever greatful mom and dad,

Christ love

Felicia and Justin Kruse

A Strong Survivor

A survivor is a person that has been able to overcome something tragic that has happened to them. The only way we can survive something like a illness, tragedy, loss, etc. is through the strength of God.  I am a survivor.

Of the many things I have been through I want to talk about one of them specifically.

The month of April is Child Abuse Awareness month. I am one of many children who are victims of child abuse. The abuse can be mental, physical or sexual. I started this blog to help others. I pray this one will help someone who has been hurt by someone, physically, mentally and/or sexually, learn how to survive. I had all three of these happen to me.

As a child you look up to the most important people in your life like, mom and dad. My mother wasn’t happy and thought having a child would make her happy. She had sex with a random man just to get pregnant. To this day I do not know who my biological father is. A secret my mother took to her grave (but that will have to wait for a blog another time). Well needless to say, having a child did not bring happiness to my birthmother, she wanted a man. The first man she brought into my life was a bully. My birthmother thought it was love and moved her boyfriend into our home. He didn't care if he woke me up at 2 in the morning to beat me with a belt just because I said I didn't like what he said and told on him. He wanted to show me that he was the head of the house hold and if you didn't do what he wanted, well a beating was about to happen. Yes, there is a difference between a beating and whipping. He would push me into a bedpost, push/shove me and my mom across rooms, broke my birthmother’s nose, left his child with no food so he could have beer & drug money. He loved to use his fists and words to hurt. My mom eventually got tired of this and got a restraining order to keep him away from her, my baby brother and myself.

Now alone with two kids she was still not happy and began looking for another man to bring into our lives. My mother would go out to have a few drinks & pick up a guy. She would leave me & my brother in the car. I would get scared and try to hide us from the people outside the car. I could hear them talk of breaking into the car to get the kids.

It didn’t take long for her to find another man.  I wanted a dad. I dreamt of having a dad to love and nurture me. This man made that dream a nightmare.  This man didn’t like that fact I was not his child and I had no problem letting him know he was not my father. He said he would love my baby brother because my brother would grow up never knowing that he was not his real dad. Since I was older I knew he was not my father. He would be the one who would take true advantage of me. He would touch me inappropriately. He would stand in my room at night and watch me in my bed. One night he drug me out of bed by my hair to rewash the dishes because they were not clean enough to suit him. Some nights I would hide my brother so he would not get hit. Other times I would say I did or did not do what was done to keep my brother from getting beat. He would brainwash other family members, steal money I worked hard for during the summer. My mother and him would go out and leave me behind saying their friends did not want me in their home.

A day that hurt the most was when my birthmother said, “Felicia, what do you want from me?” I said, “Say I Love you”. She said, “I can’t tell you that Felicia”. A few minutes later she called my step-father and I heard her as she told him I Love you. Talk about the worst day ever. She could say I Love you to a man that was physically and sexually abusing me HER child. Her flesh & blood and she can say the three words I wanted so desperately to her from my mother to HIM. Sexual abuse, gave me low self-esteem, but that moment, broke a child heart into a million pieces. My mother was not only cruel with her words but it was as if she took pleasure in seeing me getting beat. My mother would make the men use the belt on me while she watched.

Before you say, if this was going on why weren’t they reported for child abuse. They were, multiple times but every investigation ended with no proof of abuse. Even after we were kicked out of the house and I finally told about some of the things my stepfather was doing to me. My mom and stepfather lied to investigators and they said I was a liar, that I made things up. My stepfather was eventually arrested after my mom went to court to get my brother back. Again the system meant to protect failed, my stepfather was able to plead guilty to assault and I do not mean sexual assault.

So you ask, how do you survive all this. Well I first went to the one who will be father to a child who needs him. A father to the fatherless, like me. I went to God and I found Jesus. He showed me, and I felt his awesome amazing love.  Though I learned don't let these people win, I needed to survive. If I choose drugs, alcohol, and anger that is not a way to survive. It only means the people that hurt you, will win if you let them. I was not going to allow that.

I accepted Christ and prayed for strength to overcome all this. I never did drugs, alcohol and etc. So I hope you see, you do not have to let the abuser win. You can survive. You do not have to be a victim. Being victims does not have to last forever, Christ is your cure for victimization. Let him empower you and be your strength to survive.

Jesus loves you

Felicia Kruse

Strength to Understand God Plans

Jeremiah 29:11 is my favorite verses, "For I know the plans I have for you"! Amen, it is amazing to know that someone knows why we are here and why we matter. It makes it easy for me to get throught day by day knowing that God has special plans just for me. Even if it hard to understand at times.

As a foster parent or teacher I have worked with kids that struggle daily with , Why am I here?, Why I am I so important? One of my many blessings chose to wear my shoes, as blessing was trying to walk in them. It came to my mind that blessing was trying to fill my shoes. But lets be honest, Know one can fill my shoes. A person can only fill their own shoes. I mean if God said ok I want you to be like your mom, dad, sister, brother, etc, ok well it would be easy to figure what you are suppose to be or why you are here. Right?  But that's not what God says, he wants to fellow him,  he say I have plans for you, yes he has plan for other around us, but he has special plans for us. Awsome right, he has special plans for us, are own plans. The one thing no one can take away if we choose to fellow his plans for us. Sadly many well not and walk someone elase path and that were it dont always end so good.  His plans for you might be different then mine. It important to realize God gives you your own shoes to fill. If you step into someone else shoes, then we are walking someone else path. Not ours. I was told that sometime one of these blessing might be up for adoption, they have told us the blessings might have addiction issues since their biological family has. Well yes that could happen, but with the strength in God plans for us, guiding them, and teaching them to walk in their own path, they will fill their own shoes. Remember God is bigger then our genes, he created us, he didn't created us to do drugs, alcohol, etc. That is the sinful nature that takes over, not genes. I am example of a someone who people believe would walk down the path of drug's and alcohol. My birthmother did both, so it was in my genes.  She did it so i should.  I remmber having a teachers judge me throught out my life, knowing i was going to be just like Kathy. That will always shock me that some teacher could think that of a child and not look at them as thier own person.   They didn't see me, in my own shoes. I choose to  put Jesus in my life and walk in my own shoes, i didn't choose to make the choose Kathy did. She choose her choices, i choose mine.  I wanted to do my best in life. I realize hey, God has plans and loved me enough to send his son Jesus for me. I am valuable. Just know God didn't plan a hard life for us, he plan a life for us to draw closer to him not away.  I am one to admit life can get hard, but with the strength to understand God plan for me, i can conutied to live day by day knowing that i am here for a special reasons. I also have 8 children in heaven, who i would want to do the same.  Glory God, and know they are a special plan. So it my job as their mom, to let God will be done in my life and watch what he does. Even when it hard because i want them here.


So when you read do me a favor close your eyes and say Hey i am valuable and i know life hard, but God has a special reason why i am here.

Remmber Jesus Loves You
Felicia Kruse

The Loss of a Child

October is Pregnancy & Infant Loss awareness month. My prayers for the parents that have lost a child. I consider a child to be from the moment of conception. Why do I believe this. Some may say I am brainwashed since I am a christian & that is what a christian believes. God does say in the Bible

Jeremiah 1:5

 Before I formed you in the womb I knew you; 

Psalms 139:15-16 says 

5 My frame was not hidden from you

   when I was made in the secret place.

When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

16 your eyes saw my unformed body.

All the days ordained for me

   were written in your book

   before one of them came to be.

And as a christian I believe this but science also backs this up. If you have ever been with a woman early in her pregnancy and seen an ultrasound you will see a beating heart. You can hear the woosh, woosh, woosh, of the beating heart. As the child grows you will see it wave its hands, kick it's feet, flip over, turn its head. So from conception to delivery it must rely on its mother for survival.

When someone very dear to my heart was pregnant with her first pregnancy I was with her for her first ultrasound at about 6 weeks and this little bitty baby had a beating heart. I could have sat and watched & listened to that little heart beat all day long. However within a few days it stopped. Never to beat again.

It wasn't long before she & her husband created another baby. After 8 weeks this child's heart stopped beating as well. This same thing happened a third time for them. Each time I watched the beat, beat, beat of their child's heart. This was the same beat, beat, beat, mine and yours does. The only difference is they were beating within the womb. They needed their mommy to survive. She would protect them and provide everything they would need the best she could until they were big enough to survive outside.

Many tears were shed for these three little ones. The questions as to why was this happening over & over again. The advice of several fertility specialists was sought to answer the "WHY" question. Finally doctor had an answer. "Your eggs are immature and we can help you when you are ready to try again." Music to the ears of a young woman and her husband. HOPE had been given that they would have a child of their own. He would need to run tests to find out why the eggs were not maturing. Tests showed mommy was missing a hormone needed and she would only need to take shots of the hormone when she was ready.

The excitement was in the air. The time became right that they would try again. Baby making was to commence. A week of shots. Measuring of the eggs to see if they were mature enough. Then a shot to release the eggs. Then mommy & daddy would take over from there. Prayers were said that this would be it if a child would be created. I still laugh at them taking several pregnancy tests knowing they had an appointment later that week. After a few days the test showed positive. YEAH. Now to wait for confirmation. YEAH doctor confirmed a baby was growing.

By end of next week a problem had arisen, fear was setting in would this life never be.  I was blessed enough to take mommy to the ER. They took us into a room for an ultrasound. I will have to say I will never play poker with this tech. She has the best poker face ever. She skillfully did her job. Never showing any excitement or concern. Having seen a few ultrasounds before, my heart began to beat a little faster. My mind began to go a million different direction. My eyes must have been playing tricks. The doctor came in asked a few questions and she began to look at the monitor as well. I was almost afraid to ask the question that was trying to burst from my mouth. But yes the pregnancy was ok. More than ok they were counting 5 yolk sacks. Inside each of these was the beautiful blip, blip, blip of the heart beating. This was 10 days into the pregnancy. 10 Days. 3 days later we were at the doctors office where another ultrasound was conducted and they found another yolk sack. Shock and amazement is all I can say.

From that day forward plans were being made. Each of us trying to figure out how we would manage these 6  bundles being brought into our lives. After another week or too it was determined that one of the yolk sacks never developed and was absorbed. However the other 5 were doing well. We dreamt of what each one would become. What they would be like. Combination of boys and girls. A million things ran through our minds. Discussion of there schooling and more importantly their Christian upbringing. Excitement took over our lives in a new way.

Many ultrasounds were done and we watched the screen like my mom used to watch soap operas. Every movement, every kick and wave of their arms were mesmerizing. We called the one on the bottom Hoss because he was so big & had lots of room. I called one little britches because she was so small. They were all labeled A, B, C, D, & E.

Joy and anticipation of finding out the sex of each one was driving us crazy. Finally we knew A & B were boys and they would be delivered first. C, D, & E were little girls. WOO HOO!!!! Mommy & Daddy came up with names for each. Much better than the A, B, C, D, & E. More & more ultrasounds were done as the doctors needed every detail to be documented in anticipation of their birth. The doctors did not want any surprises upon delivery. They were going to be prepared for any situation that might arise. They would be ready to care for each individual need.

The entire family was keeping a big secret knowing it would not be long & we could share the surprise. Mom was put on light duty and then had to stop working. It was getting closer to the babies being viable. Each day new hopes & dreams were being made. The pregnancy was at 19 weeks only 5 more weeks & if these little ones were anxious to make their arrival, they would have a good shot at survival. However that day would not arrive. 19 weeks and 1 day labor began and went quickly. Jeremiah

fell out while mommy was in the doctors office. She was rushed downstairs to the hospital but they were not able to stop Josiah,

Miriam,

Lilyann & Phoebe from entering the world. No begging or pleading with the doctors to save them would help. They were to little survive. No medical equipment was small enough to use on them. All we could do was hold them. Love them. Watch them. The doctors said they would only live for a moment or two. That moment lasted 2 hours. you could actually see their little hearts beating. The movements we had seen on the monitor during ultrasounds we could now see happening right in front of our eyes. They opened their mouths, waved their arms & kicked their little legs. What was once safely inside the womb was now outside in our hands. And all we could do was watch as they went to Heaven. The only other time I have felt this helpless was when I watched my mother go to Heaven.

The grief of losing a child while in the womb, at birth, immediately after birth or when it is a 69 year old mother is the same. It hurts. It does not stop hurting, you just do your best to continue living without them. All hopes & dreams you had for the future died & are buried within your heart.

A year has passed and I think of them often. The what if's play over and over in my mind. What would they be doing, Starting to sit or crawl, Maybe walking. Starting to talk. If I close my eyes I can see them coming towards me calling me grandma. I can hear their giggles & can fell their tender kisses.

I can never begin to imagine the heartache of Justin & Felicia as I have never had a child to die. They have experienced loss of 3 children in the womb and 5 children to die within hours of birth.

I will not forget the beat, beat, beat of their hearts. They were. They still are just in another way.

I will someday get to see them again when I get to heaven. They will be waiting to show me around.

Strength to ask for Help

Anxiety,Worry, Nervous, Scared, Fear-!

Post-traumatic Stress Disorder-Triggered event, of something awful!

I will be the first to admit when it comes to hiding feeling, I am the first one. I am one that wants to only show the strong. I have cried or let it out, here and there. But if I don't want other to worry I will try not letting it show how sad, hurt or scared I am.

I am not afraid to say Well this could be an outcome!! It is true I always say the negative outcome, because my life has had lots of upsets. So I am prepared for the worst of anything. It is not the life you want to live. I mean always looking for the bad.  God does not allow bad, he allows opportunities to see how you will handle it. It how we grow and use what has happened to us to help us in the future.

When I was diagnosed in high school with anxiety, I thought, Oh, I worry, but I didn’t know it was actually a disorder that can affect everyday life. I mean I would worry, about everything even the small things like, checking my food over and over to makes sure it was done just right. Or if I was driving I was watching all around to make sure I was driving right. Yes I am one of those slow drivers. LOL. Trust me I would love to be the one who just goes on with their day but I can’t, because I am waiting for something bad to happen.

Is that trust in God? No its not. So I have to have strength to say HELP!!

In December 2014 and June 2015 I was diagnosed with PTSD.  I thought it was only for military people who had been in war, but I have learned it is not.  Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is a mental health condition that's triggered by a terrifying event — either experiencing it or witnessing it. Symptoms may include flashbacks, nightmares and severe anxiety, as well as uncontrollable thoughts about the event.

When I delivered my first son during the Quints birth, I stood up in the doctors examining room, my water broke, and my son fell out and was dangling by his umbilical cord. Don't cry, I pray this doesn't scare you, but it was not easy to see. The fact is that that image will always be my first image of my son. It caused a damaging effect. At the time of their birth the doctors and nurses mentioned I might need to get some sort of counseling. The Chaplain at the Women’s Hospital offered for me & my husband to attend grief counseling. I just passed it off. I was OK. I could handle this. What was one more loss.

In December 2014 I started my first real menstrual cycle, or at least I thought that was what it was. It started getting heavier and I thought I was bleeding a lot. I went to the ER. Good thing I did. I had lost over 50% of my blood. My blood pressure was very low and I nearly passed out. I was given blood transfusions and had to have a D&C. It seems a large portion of the placenta had stayed in me when I had delivered the babies. When my doctor came in I let him know that I was totally ok never getting pregnant again and if he had to remove everything I would be ok with it. While I was in recovery he mentioned I should see a therapist. When I went to my follow up, he again mentioned my need for therapy & he believed I was suffering from PTSD. I called the name he gave me and they did not have any openings. I spoke with my Pastor & he agreed I needed to talk with someone that could help me deal with what I had been through. The problem was because I my past I only felt comfortable talking with a Christian therapist & female. The name he had was Christian but a man. Again I ignored the advice of those that cared about me.

Fast forward to June 2015, I started having bad dreams/nightmares and panic attacks. That's when my side of the family, two doctors and pastor stepped up said Yes you do need help. I am not one to ask for help, I am one that says, with God I can deal with this and move on. Which is what I thought I was doing, I guess my subconscious was saying something different. I have seen a therapist a couple of times & again told I had PTSD. After hearing some of what I have been through her comment was "And you are still standing" Wow. I am standing because of GOD. I know I cannot stand on my own. He is my strength.

So that when I realize God can give us strength to say HELP!!! I mean it does not mean you are weak, it means you are strong and realize, Hey you are not God, you are human. God gives us what we can carry. I mean I have been through not knowing my dad, abuse physically, mentally and was sexually abused, lost Ma to cancer, my birth mother died suddenly from heart attack, loss of 3 babies in the womb, watching 5 children die, and I almost died due a hemorrhage. That took me back to the moment Jeremiah my son was born. I mean after so long there is a point you start to realize, Hey I need to lean on God more than ever. I am getting so tired of being strong. I am weak and need some extra help and strength. 

So ask for help, you will see God work more. Because it shows him, you trust him enough to go to him during your more critical times.  You need GODs help. Don't ever be embarrassed to say Help me. God knows we are full of sin and don't have all the ability to handle what we go through. So when we say Help, he says I am here. He guides us to those who can help us work through our problems. He knows we are weak and he is strong. So are you ready today to say I need help. I want to learn that there is more positive than negative in life. God does offer hope, his name Jesus!


²⁵ “Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing? ²⁶ Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? ²⁷ Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature?
²⁸ “So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; ²⁹ and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. ³⁰ Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?

³¹ “Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ ³² For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. ³³ But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. ³⁴ Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

Jesus Loves You

Felicia Kruse

 

Strength to Win the Battle

When I was a beginning Christian, I had started helping in the children Sunday school class at Victory Church. I was probably around 15-16 years old.  There was a 5 year little boy, who told me something, that I think about each day. It was the best advice I have gotten in a long time. I hope this advice helps you. Yes a 5 year old can give the most amazingly godly wisdom. He told me Miss. Felicia, your greatest battle, is to defeat Satan everyday. WOW! That is some strong words. But it is so true.

Everyday we plant our feet on the ground is a battle field against Satan.  Satan wants us to disobey God, so when choices lay ahead of us, he is going to push us in the disobedient direction.

We have a free will to choose what we want to do, God gives us that. The question is, are you going to choose what God wants or what you want. Sadly I have made some of those choices, I choose the wrong path. But I will tell you, It didn't take long to realize, I knew I needed to turn around.

God can give us the strength and the ability to make the right choices. That is why he gave us a guide, it’s called, The Bible. It has all the answer we need, to make the right chose.

Here are a few examples:

1) Sadly so many think it is ok to look at another person, when they are married. They think it ok to look. Well God’s word says.

Matthew 5;27-28 

 “You have heard that it was said to those of old,^[a] ‘You shall not commit adultery.’^{[b] 28} But I say to you that whoever looks at a woman to lust for her has already committed adultery with her in his heart.

2) I am one of the many who thought it was ok to make fun of someone. I will admit it. I believe we all have. You all remember that rule in school, treat others they way you want to be treated. I remember that. It was not, until I started studying the bible. I learned what is in God word, he is the one that stated that, 


Luke 6:31
And just as you want men to do to you, you also do to them like

3) Also I will admit to this one, I have lied in my years. The bible also says.

Leviticus 19:11

Ye shall not steal, neither deal falsely, neither lie one to another.

 

4) But most of all, the bible stated how important it is to say yes to Jesus. Because so many choose not to, their are major consequences. If you don't choose Jesus, you will be in God's jail. Yeap, Hell is God's jail, but there is no getting out.  The warden is Satan!! And when someone goes there, Satan sadly has won.

Revelation 20:15

 And anyone not found written in the Book of Life was cast into the lake of fire.

 

Here is a verse about Saying Yes to Jesus! Let Jesus Win!!

John 3:16

 For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.

 

So see choices are all around. Yes we have free will to chose. If you are at a point in life were you have to make a choice that is hard, trust God to give you the strength to make the right one. His word has lots of example of men and women who had to make choices. It all comes down to many having to trust God to help them make the right choices. Sometime some of the people had their lives in the balances.

So are you ready to defeat Satan today? Let God be in charge and you will see Satan be defeated.

Lets Battle!! I chose Jesus!!!

Jesus Loves You

Felicia Kruse

 

 

 

Strength for the Right Words

Do you ever have the right words to say when someone/something happens? Well I hope this blog will help someone understand what to say and do when issues arise in life.

1. What to say when friends are making fun of you?
I was made fun of a lot in school. I did not wear the name brand clothes, I smelled like smoke all the time, I had learning disabilities, since I had problems reading. Kids would really make fun of me. Well this is what I learned is the best to do,  Just say the words, Jesus loves you, I will pray for you,  I forgive you and walk away.  I admit I was one who wanted to smart off back, I learned that never works. Over time I learned, spreading the love Jesus does.  Pray That God will give you strength for wisdom in handling the bullies in life. Pray for those people who are hurting you, God is the only one who can change them, We can't, I can't.  Lots of time those bullies need to be shown Jesus Love the most. Very simple, easy words, you plant that gospel seed. God can give you strength to love your worst enemies. Jesus died for All people, even the ones who hated him.

2. Parents wisdom before their race is done. What does a Parent say to their children?
I lost my ma who raised me in 2011 to cancer. Anyone who knows anyone who has had cancer, knows that is a terrible disease. It really makes people sick and you watch your loved one suffer and then you wonder why. Romans 6:23 says:  ²³ For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. So we all are going to pass somehow and sometime. It is how we handle the situation when it comes. My Ma gave Praise to God during her time of suffering. We talked about, how God suffer much worse than her. He was beaten and nailed to a cross until death and I am suffering just from a sickness inside of me, and there is meds to help with my pain. Well those words were the words I needed to hear, because I realized she was right, Jesus did suffer more. No sickness can compare to the beating and hurt Jesus took for me, so I can live with him eternally.

3. Words to Say after the loss of parents
I loss my birth mother suddenly of a heart attack. It was a major shock to all of us. The best words I got that day was rely on God's words and promises. Yes, we can say sorry for your loss, but to be honest people get more mad over those words, why I don't understand, maybe cause that is all we now to say. I will admit I am guilty of it and always will be. But to give me a hug and say rely on the words that God has laid out for me, Plant that seed, even if those people are angry at God or others, you will remind them, that God has the words I need to hear or read. God words are meant to be shared in all of life circumstances.

4.Strength for the right time
I felt guilty that I never got the words out I wanted my birth mother to hear. I needed Kathy to know I Loved her, even though we were not close I needed her to hear that, and it was to late. So we all have a great gift in life, it called time. Please take time and tell your love ones what you want them to hear. Because in a second they can be gone. God can provide you with the strength to say the words you need to hear. We just need to take the step to tell. Before Ma passed away I had lots of time to tell her I loved her and was very thankful for all she had done for me. Most of all she knew I was Christian and she would see me again. Today I am only trusting in the hope that Kathy is in heaven, but I am not 100% sure if she truly accepted Christ. Let your loved ones know if you did put Christ in your Life, those are the best words your loved ones can hear. If they have never accepted Christ, you will show them were you will be going and how you want them to join you. Plant that seed again.

5. Strength for Encouraging Words after Addiction
I have brother, whom i love, but sadly is addicted to drugs. He has hurt so many of us. Been in and out jail. What words can you offer during this. This is the time words are not needed, it just being there. If you have a loved one who is suffering from addiction, just being there and not saying anything is the best. My brother was in jail, and my Aunt showed up to see him, and that was the best, Because she cared enough just to see him. Sometimes words need to be put into action to help others. Jesus showed action by going to the cross for you and I, that is the strongest show of love.

6.Words for the most Tragic event, The Loss of a baby or child.
 These part of the blog will be my easiest but hardest. What words to you day when a parent has just lost a child. A child is from the moment of conception. So if a child passes before their parents, they say is the hardest trial ever to endure. I have been there I have had three miscarriages and loss five infants at once, Quintuplets, they lived 2 hour before going home to be with Jesus. The best words you can tell a parents is, "I will never forgot your children, I will always remember them" Even if I lost my child in utero they were here. Don't be afraid to reminded me, hey you are a mom. when mother day or father day comes around., Call the parents up or talk them and say, I wanted to wish you a happy fathers and mothers day, I was thinking of your precious child. Those are the most awesome words. Please don't let our children be forgotten.  Don't be afraid to mention to us our children's names, when its their birthday or the day the enter their sainthood in heaven, call and just say I remember it was day for them and I was thinking of them and you all. Might sound crazy,but it  is not to us. All parents want to hear their children names even  our babies who are in heaven. This is also a time to say rely on the words and promises of God.

7 Words when someone is angry at God
I will be first to admit I have never gotten made at God, but i do know people who have. I promise GOD years ago, no matter what happen I will Praise Him. I been through a lot, abuses, loss parents, loss of children. I will say right here and now I Love my Savior and I Praise Him!!!!  Sadly so many get mad at him. When their prayer for a loved doesn't get answered, or a prayer for help in situations. When sin came into the world, sickness and heartache came into the world. GOD didn't want that, but it happened because he provided free will to choose.  Adam and Eve, chose to disobey. So God had a plan to rescues us because of this, That was sending his one and only son to die for you and I to have everlasting . So yes trials will come in our life, it is how we handle it. Like I said for each storm that comes in,  and you get through, makes you stronger. God provides that strength. So if you don't like the words, it is God's will, I am sorry but in life he has special plan for us all. The ones who accepted his will, and praise him will be blessed. I prayed for God's will to be done while I was pregnant with Quints, We made it farther then my first three pregnancies. I thought this was it, I went into premature labor, and my babies were so small they lived two hours. See I could not be mad that they were gone, because God will was done and that what I asked. So I Praise Him!!  I see sometime how it easy for people to thank God when things go their way, but when it doesn't they get mad. Well the perfect words here are, God Loves you, he a special plan,, Step back look at the storm from a third person, and you will see God working in a mighty way. Sometimes those unanswered prayers is what we need the most. Also to the ones who don't like the words "God does not give me more then what I can handle." Well I want to tell you, those are not in the bible. What is in the bible, is
1 Corinthians 10:13
¹³ No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it.

What GOD is saying here is,  I will will carry it, if you let me and trust me. I will bear for you, he is what will make you stand each trial when it comes. You are not alone, God is there. So I hope this helps you realize, God loves and he will carry you.

Remember when we are weak he is strong, He will carry that load!!!

I would recommend a song for you, by Leona Lewis, Footprints in the Sand.

Jesus Loves you,
Felicia Kruse