Strength for Sanctity of Life

Strength for Sanctity of Life


Psalm 139:14 NKJV
14 I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made
Marvelous are Your works,
And that my soul knows very well.

 A person is fearfully and wonderfully made. All people, babies all the way through the most elder person. This year Sanctity of Life is very near to me. Here is why.

Me and my husband were so ready to become parents, so we started trying, I got pregnant right away. Our first baby, o how exciting. I started having some problems went in and got to hear my first baby's heartbeat which was music to my ears, and see the baby on the ultrasound screen, all I could think was, beautiful creation of GOD . I went in for first OB appointment, doctors explain a lots of thing, but one thing that shocked me the most was what the doctor said, "Well if there are any problems you can choose to abort." I was in shock. No that is wrong and Only GOD can choose that path for any one. The life of my baby is very important to me. I mean look at this tiny baby, it had a fast heartbeat, it showed life, how can you even say that. The one thing I do remember them saying, "Well it is a viable pregnancy because it has a heartbeat." Well this is what viable means

viable-
capable of succeeding
capable of living or of developing into a living thing.

I mean it's says living, so to abort means stop a living fetus in a womb. Fetus means,
an unborn offspring of a mammal, in particular an unborn human baby more than eight weeks after conception.
So if people didn't believe it was a living fetus then why do they abort. See my thinking. Why do you abort if you don't believe it is not living.  Let God give you the strength to stand up for the ones who can't defend themselves.

The bible even states :Jeremiah 1:5
Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you; I appointed you a prophet to the nations.”

God has plan for everyone, and he design us to his perfection. Each person created is meant to be someone. Their life is important. You are important, so all people young and old, have a purpose here on earth.

My husband & I sadly lost our first baby, we named our baby Dani. Sadly we would lose our second baby, Arin, and our third baby Jessi. At 6 weeks they all had a had heartbeat. I was even able to record the thump thump thump on my phone & later transfer them onto a CD.

 My husband and I were heartbroken. We went to each of their common burial services, as we were there, I witnessed all theses other mom and dads and family, come and say "see you soon "to their babies as well. All theses life were important. So GOD put it upon my heart to be open about my loss and be a teacher about the importance of a life. I am proud supporter of pregnancy and infant loss awareness. No matter how small a life is, it is important to GOD.

Well soon GOD was going to show and teach me how really important life is. In June 2014 Justin I found out that we were pregnant again. At first the doctor thought I was pregnant with 6 babies, and they told me that I might be asked to have an abortion because six was too many for a women to carry.

 Just like my first three, I had said no before and I was gonna say no again. Having a baby was all my husband and I ever wanted so if GOD wanted us to have six babies, well we were going to have six babies and his will will be done. But if he chooses to take one we will praise him no matter, I was going to trust in GOD's plan. Even if my life could ended. We were very excited but very nervous. We were going to trust in GOD's plan. I was transferred to a high risk pregnancy specialist. on that Monday. Well it turned out that we were pregnant with quintuplets. Yes five babies. We were so very excited still, still very nervous. We knew that GOD had a plan for each of these babies their life was important to him. From five weeks to 19 weeks we watched these babies grow. We learned that there were  2 boys and 3 girls. Yes I had two sons and three daughters. We gave them names. Jeremiah William, was going to be born first. He would be named after his daddy. Josiah Dean named after Pa, the man who was a father to me would be born second. They would be the big brothers that would have to protect their little sisters. Miriam Faith would be born third and the first of my little girls. She was named after Ma, the woman that was more mom to me than grandma. Then Lilyann Marie would make her way into this world. She was named after my birth mom & my mother-in-law. Finally The baby of the family was Phoebe Annette. We were going to name her after my aunt.

We watched their heartbeat, we watch them grow, wave, kick and do flips. They were truly beautiful creations of GOD.

Sadly on September 17, 2015 at 19 weeks and one day I went into premature labor delivering all five of the babies.

Since they were so premature they were only able to live two hours outside of the womb. They were two of the most  most blessed hours.

I got to hold them in my arms. I watched them move their hands and feet. I could see their hearts beating. I was in awe to see such beauty. They were a masterpiece by GOD and only 19 weeks. We were told that they would only lives seconds or minutes. GOD showed up and showed off. They lived two hours. At 19 weeks they had 10 fingers, and 10 toes.

They had knees just like you and I. They had a heartbeat just like you and I. They had a smile just like you and I. They moved just like you and I did as a baby. They opened and closed their little mouths. Jeremiah was even sucking his thumb.

One of the ultrasound tech came to see me later that evening and said she saw GOD that Day. So I hope you see, as short as their life was, it was important and they were created so beautifully. Life from the very beginning can be used for a major purpose.

I understand if you are not ready to be a parent, but GOD is ready for that life to be someone. Trust me that life you don't want, God does and you can bless a couple who can't biologically have one of their own. God can give you strength.

I want end this with my favorite verse :
Jeremiah 29:11

11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.

GOD has our future planned out from the beginning.

Jesus Loves you
Felicia Kruse

Strength For the New Year

2 Corinthians 12:9-10

9 And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Everyone looks forward to a new year. We set a goal at the beginning in hope of to achieve it. New Year, fresh start! But what does a person do to start a new year, when they lose someone they love, lose their job, lose their home, lose their possessions??? Some people may not even look forward to starting a new year. Well I hope this blog helps you get excited for a new year, but most of all help you understand a strength that comes from God, that can help you prepare for a new year.

This describes my 2014:  it was: confusing, emotional, tragic, eye-opening, praise worthy,
faithfully, knowledgeable, loving, caring, forgiving, understanding, STRONG! All I can say it's been the most unforgettable year in my life.

In 2014 I lost my birthmother suddenly do to undiagnosed cardiovascular disease in February. In March I lost a great Christian friend due to cancer. In May my husband became a deacon and I got pregnant. In June we found out we were expecting Quintuplets (Yes 5 babies), my Aunt Barb made her journey to heaven, three weeks later my Uncle Gene joined her in heaven. The rest of my summer was filled with excitement watching my precious babies grow from week to week. In August I would start the new school years & see the precious children in my class. They tragedy reared its ugly head on September 17. I went into premature labor. I was delivering my quints at 19 week and 1 day.  QUINTUPLETS. My babies lived for two hour before going to their home in heaven. A nurse seen God during all this, Hallelujah! For the second time in 7 months I had to plan a funeral. At the end of October I returned to my kids at the school. December came & I was trying to figure out how to get through Christmas when I started to hemorrhage, and almost lost my life.  

So if you think you had it rough, life is unfair to you, or why did that happen to you. I personally don't think of any of that. I did keep repeating to myself, "I can’t wait for 2014 to end." Then I started thinking, wait I needed 2014. No, I didn't want what happened to happen, but I needed it to have opportunity to see what God can do and will do. I have seen God work through the most difficult times for my loved ones and me. Most of all, I realize I am still standing. I am still here. I have strength from God that feels great. I am not depressed. I am not angry. I am at peace. I am not guilty to keep moving forward.  Because when I was at the weakest point, God has provided me with strength to keep standing. He reminds me there is a hope, through any loss. That hope is Jesus Christ!  I have come to realize Gods got a special plan for my life. I could have lost my life, but he needed me here to continue to spread his word. I have learned so much more in 2014 than I have in all my other years.

So you might ask, how do you Praise God through the loss of you children, how could you just say see you later to them, keep smiling, move forward into a new year and not feel guilty, and don't feel awful about it? Well I can answer that, because of the Strength that God provided for me. I ask during the delivery for God to give me strength to get through this and he did!! I am not saying this does not hurt and there are moments I miss them. But I want to be reunited with my children and loved ones that have passed on. So I am going to work more toward serving my Savior. I will work my best to make my Savior proud. Secondly, I want to make my children proud. So that is how I move forward in a new year. It is strength and going to make my goal, doing a better job serving my Lord. People’s salvation is very important, if I give up, then I could not help teach them what they need the most.  Because when I need something he has always been there and providing for me. For example, Salvation, so I can go to heaven to be with him and my babies, strength when weak, hope, love, peace, comfort and so much more. Jesus wants people to know him, accept him, so I need to serve my Savior, by telling others.

A New Year can bring an opportunity to see who God is and What he can do. Many times it depends on how you have accepted what you are given. I accepted to Praise him and I am looking forward to what more there can be. If you have lost your job maybe there is a job God has for you that’s more what you need. God knows us better then we know ourselves.

So, I am still standing. 2015- I have no guilt moving forward or worried, because, God has given me Hope for the future, the promise to provide for me what I need. Till my race is finished then I am going to be his faithful servant. I pray you can see that hope I have. Trust me; you will realize how peaceful and strong you can be. Jesus Loves you, in those trials, show him you love him and you will be blessed.

2015- Prayers for more to say yes to Jesus, for closer walk with Jesus, Good health for all, comfort for the broken hearted.

"Praise The Lord through hard times and good times!!"

Jesus Love you

Felicia Kruse

Strength for the Holiday

Isaiah 41:10: "Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand"

Holidays are supposed to be happy, joyful, and much more. Though what does a person do to get through a holiday without their loved one? In 2011 I was going to experiences my first major holiday without  the most special people in my life,  Ma who raised me and my first baby Dani and second baby Arin, who I had miscarried. In 2012 I had another miscarriage, Jessi, our third. Ma always made all holidays special. Christmas and Easter were her favorites. The hardest was not having my babies here, how was I even going to make it through the holidays year after year. Then in 2014 I experienced the toughest loss, I gave birth to quintuplets, yes 5. They lived for two hour here on earth. They were born 21 weeks premature. Also my birth mother passed away suddenly. 

Here are a three ways that helped me get through the first holiday without my loved ones and continue to get through in years ahead.

1. When my heart is breaking I try to remember what Christ did for all of us. It’s about the birth of our Savior Jesus Christ. Jesus would die on a cross and be risen from tomb three days later. He was sent to saves us from our sins so we can have everlasting life. So if one believes in him, they will have everlasting life. God provides me with strength to get through each holiday, because the hope of seeing my loved ones again. What a day that will be. God is the provider of peace and comfort. He knows about death. He knows we will grieve. He wants you and I to look to him for peace and comfort. He loves you. That's why he provides salvation. Turn to him today and watch what he can do for you.

2. Another form of help during the holidays is talking about your love ones. Share memories, funny stories. Honor them by making something they liked or something they cooked. God provides you with some form of memory. I didn't get to meet Dani, Arin, and Jessi, but I did get to hear a heartbeat, and see them on ultrasounds. It is not very many memories, but it is three memories that impacted my world amazingly. Strength is like a battery it needs to be charged. So God provides some good memories to help charge your strength during those most difficult times when missing your loved ones more. That is why I say, the best gift you can have is spending time and making memories. Also don't let anger and hatred keep you from making memories they will not make much of a charge. Your battery will need to be charged. God provides it!!!

3. Don't feel guilty about being happy. Your loved ones want you to be happy and enjoy yourself. Depression will only bring you down. It will make life so miserable. Your loved ones, wants you to be happy. So honor them by doing that.  Trust God to give you that charge to help you smile.

When you battle one storm, you will be able to battle the next. With God by your side, you will notice how you have the strength to enjoy and be happy. Even with the most tragic events in your life.

Jesus is The a reason for the season
Merry Christmas Every One,

Jesus Loves you,
Felicia Kruse
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Strength of the Unknow

Strength of the Unknown

When a child is born they have two blood lines, one of the mothers and one of the fathers. They have stories one from the mothers and one of the fathers. A child can learn a lot about their history and themselves through their parents. But what happen if that child's does not know one of their biological parents or both. Well I am one who does not know who their biological father is. For any person who does not know their biological parents, there can be emptiness, or a constant search in their life. For example questions:  did I have brothers/sisters? do they love me?, would he/she even be proud of me?, or for me, is he a Christian? Questioning all the time and searching for the unknown could cause heartache for years to come. I would be the first to admit, I want to know who my father is. I have asked the question of others and myself, on Father's Day and wedding day. I wonder what it would be like if I had known him. I admit I was jealous of others around me. They got to say the word Dad. I would love to have said that to. For many years this has causes me heartache, but one day someone told me "Hey you do have a father, we call him God!!" I was blind to what was really important, and who truly loved me. He is a father to the ones without parents. So after hearing that the next time someone called their father, Dad or I went to a wedding and a dad spoke of their daughter, I had strength, to smile.  I had strength, not knowing my father didn't matter to me. Because I loved my Lord and he loved me as his child. That was better than even knowing who my biological father was. Then I started realizing something even more, my Grandpa, who I call Pa, stepped up to raise me. He was a dad that God sent me to be the dad I needed. Yes he was not my biological dad, but it takes more than DNA to be a parent. Pa did everything a dad should do, teach a child about God. He loves me even when I make mistakes, made sure I had a proper education, and that I was taken care of.  So see not having the strength to overcome an unknown can cause use to be blind to what God has done for us and who he is to us! See God loves you, he sent his son to save us from our sins, you can always trust in his promises. He will comfort you when you are hurting. He never lies and he will never leave you. I am thankful I had the strength to overcome the unknown and to see the beauty in front of me. I am proud to say I have the best father in the world, God, and he gave me a true blessing also, my earthly father here, Pa!

Love you Pa, Thanks!

Jesus love you

Felicia

Strength to Forgive

Strength to Forgive

As we were going over are Sunday school lesson, about Joseph forgiving his brother, God put something on my heart. I was born to a single mom, who wanted the party life, she could not even say who my dad is. She was in and out of my life. My grandparents had to take on the true roll of parenting me. My mom brought men into my life that would hurt me. I am a victim of child abuse. There was physical, mental and sexual abuse.  My mother told me once that she can never say I love you to me. This hurt the most! Some of us would say, I would never talk to her or even her part of my life.  She was always able to say I love you to the men in her life. But God had bigger plan and I am glad I listen to him instead of letting anger take control.

In the Bible, Joseph's brothers, were just as awful. They threw him in a pit to die, changed their mind and sold him instead. They told his father he was dead. Through all of this, Joseph loved The Lord, and trusted in God’s plan. Because of his Love for The Lord, Joseph had Strength to forgive his brothers when the time came.

Just like I would, when I became a Christian at 16, I totally didn't understand forgiveness. I was young, learning, I didn't know how to handle my mother. Over time I started learning that Jesus forgives anytime we ask, and that it's important for us to forgive the ones who have hurt us.

One day at a friend of mines mother’s funeral, my friend’s grandmother asked me to forgive my mother. That's all she asked from me, no prayers, just forgive. I didn’t understand how this lady whose daughter had died in an accident could be asking ME to forgive my mother. So I had to have Strength that day if I was going to forgive my mother. Because I love my Lord, I knew that what he would want me to do. So I did.

Because of the strength to forgive her came from Gods strength. I had a change of heart. My hurting heart was turning to a heart to show God’s love toward her. She looked broken, not evil, realizing my mom was sick, she had a mental illness. She didn't understand what she was doing and she was doing the best she could. She needed someone to help her. She needed someone to show her the Love of Jesus. When someone would say something bad about her or make fun of her, it broke my heart, because she was someone we are supposed to forgive, love and help. I wanted to stick up for her. I admit there were times I would make fun of her too. Every time I felt sick with myself, could not believe I didn't just stick up for her like I wanted to. I realized I needed her forgiveness too. 

Over time she and I could finally talk on the phone laughing. She even finally said I love you.  Sadly my mother and I didn't get many years to grow even closer or even have that mother/daughter relationship. My mother died suddenly on Feb 4, 2014.

Though I am thankful for the Strength God gave me to forgive her, because she did get to see the Love of Jesus through me, I believe that's why she was living and acting so humbly in last few years of her life. I finally saw the Mom I always wanted. I can't say though, Yes she in heaven, because she never came out and said Yes I accepted Jesus as my lord and Savior, while I was here. But I have been told that when she was a teenager she made a profession of faith in Jesus Christ. Even though she walked away from God and choose not to follow him for many years. So I am relying on the fact that she did accepted and hoping she had the Strength to ask for forgiveness.

I am also thankful we were able to laugh and talk after all that hurt, If I didn't forgive, I know there would have been pain for the rest my life. So see hurt will come, but you can rely on God to help you have that Strength to forgive, trust me once you do, peace will come and life will be happier.

Love ya Kathy.

Jesus Love you

Felicia

Hi I am Felicia Kruse. I am a Christian, I serve my savior Jesus Christ, who I believe died on a cross for all people sins, so we can have enteral life in heaven. He is the Messiah, King of Kings, Lord of a Lords, The great I am!  I believe God is the one true God and is the true giver of strength! I am married to my wonderful husband Justin! We have the most adorable dog named, Bebe. We are the proud parents of 8 saints in Heaven. I have wanted to share my life testimony with others. That's why I started a blog to help start that process.  I want to help other who need help in understanding where strength comes from and how it can help you in your daily life. I am hoping to share how I have been able to overcome the storms in my life, and help others going through a similar storm. The blog is called, Gaining Strength Together! Because our strength comes from God!  I am hoping with each blog I can show that real strength comes from God and how that strength can help you when a storm comes in your life. Strength is not something we are born with, it is something that comes over time through God! In every person’s life, there will be some storms and yes some can be so huge you seem like you are drowning. But with this week by week blog, I am hoping to tell my story and help teach you that God can give you strength, to battle any storm, as long as you are willing to ask him for it and having the faith to let him lead! Yes letting him lead might be a problem you have. But trust me if you are willing, you will have strength you never would realize you can have.  I have gone through so many storms, I can relate to about anything. I understand the loss of a child, I am a victim of child abuse, losing a loved one to cancer, to having a love one in jail and not knowing a biological parent and much more. Yes I am 28 and I am the modern day Job! Joseph, (from the bible), his storm lasted about 13 years, mine has been off and on for 28 years.  But I am still Praising God and will always Praise him. See my favorite verse is Jeremiah 29:11, because I have the faith God has a plan! 

Jesus Loves you

Felicia

Strength

Strength is not something you are born with. Strength is not given to you in a pretty little package all tied up with pretty paper and a bow. It is not something you suddenly wake up with. Or just decide on a whim today I am going to have strength.

Strength will surprise you. It is there that day when you do not realize it. It sneaks up on you. It is the day you realize I made it through the day and everyone around you is left in awe that you are still standing. Little by little it creeps into your daily life.

The little things happening to you & around you help to build the strength that you will one day know is there. Things happen and you are left to wonder why did this happen. Questions will come to mind as to why this happened. We see what is right in front of us. Not what is down the road in the future or right around the corner.

People want to blame GOD when things do not go the way we want. Because of free will that GOD gave us, we are left to make our decisions. Whether right or wrong. If we ask for GOD's guidance and then do what we want, we must be prepared for the consequences. Good things & bad things will happen in our lives. We can allow these things to destroy us or we can gain strength from them and be better prepared when the next storm comes.

Strength is what comes from the storm when we survive. If we rely on GOD's strength to get us through we will be better able to rely on him to get us through the next wave. You will trust he will be by your side and that you are not alone. That is how building strength begins. Trusting GOD with the little things so he can be there when you have the hard things come up.